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          Michael:
         
         What about visual imagining? If you meet someone new, do you create 
            a detailed picture of their face? Or if you listen to a novel on tape, 
            can you easily visualize the scenes as they are described?
        
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          Joel:
         
         The answer to the second question is easier. Having experienced the 
            world with unimpaired vision until middle age, I form mental images 
            of descriptive prose as well and as readily as ever. My imagination 
            is informed by rich, durable visual memory of things. Meeting people 
            is quite different. It's only in the last two or three years that 
            I've been unable to see someone's face as much more than a shadow 
            or, under bright light, a flesh-colored blur. For the people I've 
            met during this period, including some who are good friends now, I 
            try hard to conjure up some sort of features, but all I manage, and 
            that very fleetingly, is something like a crude police sketch. Sometimes 
            I ask someone I trust to describe someone for me, and I plug key elements--sensual 
            mouth, intelligent eyes, whatever--into the sketch to give it some 
            specificity.
        
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          Michael:
         
         When I think about you, or if somebody says your name, an image of 
            your face washes across the little screen inside my head, along with 
            a kind of muted echo of the sound of your voice and maybe some flashes 
            of little scenes, like the Cuban restaurant where we last got together. 
            When you're thinking about one of your newer friends whose face you've 
            never seen, what is the immediate qualitative experience for you? 
            I'm guessing that you carry some sense of the person that's unique 
            to them and is more immediate and visceral than your police sketch.
        
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           Joel:
          
          Ah, the internal audio-visual department. Hard-wired to memory, 
              ready at a millisecond's notice. Seriously, as I still see, though 
              with a muted, kaleidoscopic fragmentation, I pick up a lot of visual 
              clues about a person. Physique, body language, clothing style and 
              fit, and more. I even catch the face if I look away, though I can't 
              claim to have "seen" it in the normal sense. So when I think of 
              people more recently become part of my life, I have your same experience 
              but perhaps with the person's voice a bit more prominent in the 
              mix, along with those other faintly-seen details. In my imagination, 
              I reflexively strain to picture the face, but of course draw something 
              from a shadow to that police sketch, depending on my creative energy 
              level, if you'll pardon the expression. I was thinking the Yiddish 
              "coyach," meaning, roughly, "strength of spirit for coping."
         
         
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